Maja, baby, get yourself tested for ADHD. ADHD often goes undiagnosed in girls because it presents differently for us than it does for boys, and we all know it is boys for whom and around whom the world is designed. As a former IB student, I understand your pain, your plight, your depth of existential despair as you wake suddenly at 4:00 in the morning with the sharp realization you have forgotten to do the paper, the diorama, study for the exam. I see you. I am over 40, and still have nightmares that I have IB exam for which I have forgotten to study or even attend class.
It wasn't until I dropped out of my third college that I finally was tested for ADHD, and getting treated changed my life. If I had treatment in high school when I should have, my life would have been entirely different. I'm sure I could have handled more IBH, gotten that weighted GPA higher, and made it into my choice schools (and stayed there!). A lot of what you describe was exactly my experience. I have written papers at 3:00 in the morning because I procrastinated by reading Anne Rice novels all night instead of doing my work.
Don't be me. Get evaluated, see what's out there to help you.
Thank y’all for answering! Thank you for the advice, and yes miss honey I will be a diva for the dolls and slay fiercely hunty (and hopefully graduate in the process)(also thank you to those telling me to do a test for ADHD cuz I might take you up on that…)
If Maja or any girl who relates to her sees this: take an online screening for women and girls with ADHD. See if it resonates. I got a 100% on my English exams in Grade 12 but barely passed the class because I couldn't do the work. I spent 20 years struggling with ADHD and didn't get diagnosed til 30 because misogyny. Don't let it steal your future and potential because you're not getting treatment for this very real brain disorder. Be an advocate for yourself.
Maja, baby, get yourself tested for ADHD. ADHD often goes undiagnosed in girls because it presents differently for us than it does for boys, and we all know it is boys for whom and around whom the world is designed. As a former IB student, I understand your pain, your plight, your depth of existential despair as you wake suddenly at 4:00 in the morning with the sharp realization you have forgotten to do the paper, the diorama, study for the exam. I see you. I am over 40, and still have nightmares that I have IB exam for which I have forgotten to study or even attend class.
It wasn't until I dropped out of my third college that I finally was tested for ADHD, and getting treated changed my life. If I had treatment in high school when I should have, my life would have been entirely different. I'm sure I could have handled more IBH, gotten that weighted GPA higher, and made it into my choice schools (and stayed there!). A lot of what you describe was exactly my experience. I have written papers at 3:00 in the morning because I procrastinated by reading Anne Rice novels all night instead of doing my work.
Don't be me. Get evaluated, see what's out there to help you.
Thank y’all for answering! Thank you for the advice, and yes miss honey I will be a diva for the dolls and slay fiercely hunty (and hopefully graduate in the process)(also thank you to those telling me to do a test for ADHD cuz I might take you up on that…)
If Maja or any girl who relates to her sees this: take an online screening for women and girls with ADHD. See if it resonates. I got a 100% on my English exams in Grade 12 but barely passed the class because I couldn't do the work. I spent 20 years struggling with ADHD and didn't get diagnosed til 30 because misogyny. Don't let it steal your future and potential because you're not getting treatment for this very real brain disorder. Be an advocate for yourself.
These answers slay, hunty
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